Hey guys, I want you to know I’ve read this and I’m praying and processing through it. I sense this was HS led sharing, intentional and purposeful. Know I hear and I will pray and ask the Lord to help me with this. Initially, Ill share that I think my heart is quick to forgive when people ask me for forgiveness. I sometimes struggle tho when there is continued wounding or wounds that cut to the core of who I am. - and I must forgive even tho they don’t care that they hurt me. But, I’ll also share that it feels quite icky and convicting to consider the idea that harboring any unforgiveness is essentially my attempt to elevate myself to the judgment seat. 😔 The seat that belongs only to our Lord. Thanks for sharing this. I’ll be praying about unforgiveness and ask the Lord to show me what I need to do and more importantly for me, how to do it. Sigh...

I really enjoyed this post because I can relate to quite a bit of this (even the part about having an open mouth chewer lol) and I appreciate the honesty and transparency. Parenting is something my heart desires to do well - the parts that God has given me to do that is. But sometimes I struggle to be consistent. Sometimes I get weary of picking the battles, especially with our strong willed children who require more discipline. Sometimes I’m too hyper sensitive because I’m annoyed about continued behaviors we can’t get a handle on. It’s really hard work. But it’s such important work. This makes me wonder...in what ways am I sowing seeds of iniquity? More to pray and ask God to reveal to me and help me with. Thanks for sharing this Jordan. I really admire the way you and Sarah teach and train your children up in the way of the Lord...the little bits I’ve seen anyway. 😊❤️

I’ll share and confess that I rarely if ever rejoice in suffering. I’m typically the one rejoicing when the suffering ends. I get sad and sometimes even easily discouraged when things are difficult. But I have grown by the grace of God. The Lord has really helped me get to a place of seeking Him (in His word, in prayer, in patience while waiting ect) when there is suffering or difficult times. But the truth is I do not have a natural and genuine act of rejoicing in moments or months of suffering. I think it’s a super natural response- much like gratitude in times of difficulty, but it’s something I hope and pray the Lord will continue to work on in me.